Change of heart.

God I a thankful for whatever you are doing, even if I don't understand.

Teach me how to love, like you love me!

My love language is quality time, but I also like my alone time. (I know kinda weird) But when I am lacking in quality time with someone I am close with, it really drives me nuts, especially if we are supposed to be good friends! It just makes me really upset and then I choose to gossip about it, but that is something I'm trying not to do. It is definitely a struggle since I am an all or nothing girl. Either you are my friend no half ways. I am not even really asking necessarily for quality time in person but just even a phone call. Then again I think... would Jesus treat people like that, or me like that? or show love to me that way? No way!

WOAH.. okay To think of it, this blog post is quite convicting to me now! AHH.. taught myself a lesson. I wonder if this is how Jesus feels when I don't spend time with him. How am I showing him love!? Today? and always? Am I keeping up with my daily devotions!? I don't deserve his love, but by your grace! OKAY.. lessoned learn! THANK YOU JESUS!!

I realized through this, I need to love like Jesus and not only that but in my own life I need to show Jesus love, by spending time with HIM!

Overall I am so thankful that I have the spirit of self control (2 timothy 1:7)

So whatever you wish that men would do to you, do so to them. Matthew 7:12

No mind can conceive

I am really happy where I am at.

Today was a lovely day, I cleaned my room, and just relaxed! I haven't left my house all day.. I know weird.. I haven't done that in a long time, so I am a bit antsy.. and at like 9pm thinking of just going out for a coffee. It's really unlike me... I think that is why I am so uncomfortable.. hah.. OR MAYBE it' because I am also at a desktop computer!! UGH... I prefer a laptop, so I can be in the comfort of my own bed! haha

Yesterday for lifegroup we went to go watch one of our fellow lifegroup peeps music performance. She plays a bassoon.. I wonder where a bassoon.. comes from.. its quite a large instrument.. kinda sounds like a clarinet but deeper, I think they are from the same family! The performance was great, and filled with lots of talented musicians.. but it was long.. and a bit boring... just a bit haha. But it was nice.. to just drive together to go see it.. a mini road trip. Laughing and singing in the car. I honestly just love them all. It's so awesome to just have that group of people you can grow close to and get to know! I also just love my church!

I just feel like in life I have had so many ups and downs, but I thank God. I feel like I've come so far.. I feel so grateful and just so blessed. I am so glad that God never leaves me and always has a plan and purpose! SERIOUSLY!! Aren't you happy for that!?


However, as it is written: "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him"--
1 Corinthians 2:9

I want to have a great story.

This inspires me and I want to live a great life!!

Are you living a great story with your life? from Donald Miller on Vimeo.

here is where you can buy this..Buy his book here! 

Good life.

I have had quite the week, and its had its ups and downs, BUT..
When I think things over, all of my good days outweigh my bad days.. so I won't complain. 
God is good, all the time to me!! I have so many things in my life that I am blessed with. And so many wonderful people. I know God has a purpose and a plan.

So thankful for life, and being able to just walk down the street and live!!
Not everyone has that, PRAYING FOR YOU LIBYA!!!! 

Valentines Day = Happiness!

I am so thankful for Jesus love for all of us. I mean no one could of ever loved me like he did! So freaking awesome. Celebrating AGAPE!! God's hesed towards me! You are awesome father!

I devoted most of my day to spending time with him, he is my Saviour and best-friend!! AND he loves me more than anyone else I know!! He rescued me from those valley's in my life and filled up the holes in my heart!! Making me humble when I needed it. And thank you for guiding be back on the narrow path when I took the wrong turn! AND MOST of all thank you for smoothing out the rough edges of my heart, when I needed it the most! I couldn't ask for a better Valentines day!

Every valley will be filled, 

and every mountain and hill will be brought low,

and the crooked will be made straight,

and the rough ways will be made smooth,

Luke 3:5

under the sea

This weekend was quite eventful!!
I went to the aquarium with one of the little girls that I take care of! And it was so much fun, I can't wait to go again sometime soon! I just love all the underwater creatures.. I mean I probably wouldn't like swimming with them, and having them touch me! For one I am not a good swimmer, and I am all squeamish! But I just love going to the aquarium. There is something calming about it for me! And I just love it, and I don't know why. I love looking a them, and taking picturess.. (can't wait to get my camera!!)

I am so thankful for all the beautiful fish God has created!!

shorrrt

My mom got back from her trip to Baltimore! I am really happy to see her. It's just nice to have someone you know loves you a lot by your side and just there sometimes!

SO far.. trying to follow my "Think about no such things" post has been a nightmare! Especially when the girls don't listen, just about drives me crazy!!.. so hopefully I will get some patience!!
AND start to try..

sorry this is short...

I am thankful for my mom!

Promises

For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God.

2 Corinthians 1:20

I am so thankful for promises that are kept

Greater is He

Today was a long day for me and the girls. Lots of tears, and not listening! The 3 year old had a bad dream.. so woke up balling, and she was thinking about her grandpa that passed away in December. Totally breaks my heart.. wish I could do something. It was just a bad time to be crying her eyes out though because we had to go pick up little girl #2 from school!! And then.. she has a rough day too.. so when we got him she wasn't listening! I was going nuts though, I had to step back from the situation and just take time to look at things and talk it over with someone wiser. It was good and when I went back to the situation by the grace of God they were both just silent and good. Things just came together, thank you God. And we all made it through the rest of the day, and we can make it through any day!

I am thankful for Godly Counselors I have in my life! 

You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.

1John 4:4

Think about such things..

I am so happy it's a new week. And I can't wait to get back to work! I love my job! For real!
So thankful for my job! The lives I work with!

“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—THINK ABOUT SUCH THINGS.”

—	Philippians 4:8

I want to try and do this, and live my this! I know I have good self control and can hold my tongue. But God knows what I am thinking, I need to change my thoughts! I know no one is perfect, but I can always better myself to my best! I wanna try to record my moments I think the opposite of the verse.. and really try and erase that from my life. It's no use thinking about negative things! I know I can't do it alone! I will pray and see change! I know God is powerful beyond measure so I know I can do it! I am gonna cast those thoughts out..

Anyways just a challenge for me this week, I will keep you posted on how it goes!

love this city.

It was just one of those weeks.. so My weekend, was very very relaxing.. 

It was just one of those weekends.. where I did barely anything at all. Just relaxed.  On Friday.. stayed late at the house I nanny at and had dinner there and watched.. "Megamind" It was so so cute. Loved it. And Saturday.. I think I literally did nothing all day.. And Sunday a couple of my friends came over and it was nice to just talk and laugh, and go out for bubble tea.. I miss those times.. and I need that! So thankful for that.

However I did go see "Tron". Which I loved.. and it was even better seeing VANCOUVER!!! In it, and just being able to say... I know where that is!! Seeing West Georgia street from another view! =)

I live in such a beautiful city, and I am so thankful. 

Let go, Let God.

That is truly one of the most hardest things I have ever had to do in my life.

Today I met with a friend, and just rebuilt our friendship, I hope we can be where we used to be. But only God knows.. It was a really hard conversation.. but we needed to talk about where we were at. Even in the mist of things.. I still wanted her as a friend. I prayed about it all day.. just for things to go smoothly.

There were a lot of feelings thrown around.. and I know the saying
"Never apologize for what you feel. It's like saying sorry for being real."
We both were saying how we felt in situations.. but for me this quote isn't true. Apologize, wither it's how you feel or not.. you still may of hurt that person. Let go of your pride and swallow that up.. and just say you're sorry, and MEAN IT. Even if my words of how I felt were real or not.. it's not about me.. and if what was said made that person hurt.. it's just not worth it. That person.. is a person too, just like you.. they hurt just like you when you are hurting.. and this is the time to just say sorry.

I know it makes so much sense for Christians to do this.. or even may be hard for some. But ultimately.. don't be that person. In life people WILL break promises and let you down. Deep down that even thought or whatever you said in being "real" hurt that other person even if it true or not.. or maybe it revealed to them a side of you.. they never saw.. but let go of the you.. and just think of them.. JUST them..



I am thankful, my arms. And being able to hug those I love.

It's a New year..

This is a new year, and it's time for some new goals I narrowed it down to 5 main things..

One : I want to figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life.. so far.. I've been thinking about being a high school counselor. I hated mine, but why not change that... why not be that different counselor that kids don't hate. And someone who actually cares about those kids!

Two : I want to explore different careers and figure out something I want for the rest of my life. No matter what I do, I want to touch the people around me, and make a difference in people's lives. I truly want God to use me. So I need to get my butt in gear and figure out my life.

Three : I want to go to Trinidad.. I miss my family like crazy!! Not my intermediate family but my aunts, uncles and cousins! So I am going to save up for that!!

Fourth : I really want to go on a missions trip, to either Ukraine or Hati, or really anywhere. Hopefully in June. And to be changed, and to just learn. To let God use me in whatever way he sees fit!! I can't wait and I know it'll happen.

Fifth : To be volunteering at coastal, and be connected fully. Just to give my whole heart and do whatever is in need. I am starting volunteering in Kids ministry this Sunday!